In other parts of my life, I'm feeling similarly. Chris' leave date was set for Feb. 15th and its now possible he will leave sooner. And, of course its not that I want him to leave and go to Afghanistan.. but somehow for me, his leaving earlier signifies us getting closer to spending our lives together in that the sooner he goes the sooner he is back and the sooner we can move on with our relationship and our lives. It has been months and years or long distance for us, and its been good, we've made the best out of the situation. The last year truthfully flew by pretty fast considering he was in Edmonton and I was here. He visited lots and we have lots of great memories and very few negatives ones from the past year that I can remember. Things are pretty great aside from the fact that we live apart and I think thats why I feel like its time for us to be together in the same city for more than a few weeks at a time.
We went to a family briefing this past weekend and they told us that for the soldiers, the time will pass quickly, but for the families it may seem to really drag on. I guess traveling will help with that. I am hoping so at least. We also went to a change of command parade for the unit where Chris and the others from his unit going on this tour were asked to step forward in their ranks. They addressed them as a group and thanked them for stepping up to the plate for the unit and for Canada. The one thing I really liked was that the woman speaking didn't say to "pray" for the soldiers while they were there, but just to send good thoughts. I know that everyone that knows Chris and I will be doing the same and I appreciate everyone's support even when none of us (including myself) can really know what this will be like for them or even for me to go through. Though I'm still not completely sold on this mission, I'm starting to see its importance for both the soldiers and for the the Afghan people as well. So I am trying to support him in this and trying to keep in mind that this is an experience he needs to have, and just hoping that he feels he has fulfilled his duty after one tour and doesn't ever want to leave again!! It is somewhat consoling to know that he is going over with some good buddies and people who I now know and trust to take care of him when I cannot. It is starting to hit home emotionally but I dont know that this will fully sink in until I head to Edmonton for the departure and then, maybe not even until I internalize everything and start to realize I cant just call him when I have something exciting to tell him or just to hear his voice. In the meantime I am trying to keep positive and we are focusing on all of the exciting things on the horizon. I think positive thinking is going to be helpful through this journey for the next 7 months. Keep sending positives vibes to everyone you know!!
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