halfway through Jan

so it is hard to believe we are already halfway through January.  doesn't it seem like the older we get, the faster time goes by?  Its just so crazy!!   So far I've been about 50/50 with my resolutions.  I met with Amy to discuss travel plans for Africa and I'm hoping to go down to see a travel agent today to start booking some of the flights.  Its getting a little complicated because of Chris' undetermined leave dates (though we think its possible they are in April).. and the fact that there are all these military rules about who he can bring, where I can fly out of, etc. etc.  Its frustrating to say the least but not his fault.

      I've been working out pretty well every day this past week - but yoga totally kicked my butt on Sat. It was brutally hot and humid (waaaay more than any other bikrams class I've ever been in) and it was one of those low days when I just felt like everyone around me was bringing me down (including myself) and I was being pulled into a vat of bad vibes.   I'm in kind of a weird space these days.   Preparing for the trip is exciting but also somewhat stressful, and not knowing if I'll be working from one day to the next is a little different from the last time I was TOCing.   I worked a half day yesterday, but didn't get a call today... so it is hard to feel productive and motivated without a concrete schedule to work from.  I like knowing my weekly schedule so I can plan things around it, but this is just so different.  I'm going to have to find ways to motivate myself during the day to get things done.  Its not as if there is nothing to do - I just have to start getting some of the random things done that have been on my to-do list for eons!

     As for Chris leaving, it is starting to get to me a little more as we get closer to that day.   We dont know the date yet, big surprise there, but I know that soon I'll be more concerned about catching the daily news report and always trying to be available to accept phone calls even if its at weird hours, and thinking of little things I can send him in packages.  I think my mom said it best, and she was right.  It is just going to be such a different year for us.  No school, no permanent job, the stress of Chris being away, the fact that we'll just be waiting waiting waiting for him to be home.  The traveling to various places on my own (without the aid of a planned choir itinerary I usually follow to the T).   Just so much happening in such a short amount of time.  Its going to be a whirlwind of activity, which I always love, but its going to be a difficult year emotionally and I'm sure I will grow a lot through these experiences.   

   For today, I'm off to the bank to discuss money matters and then hopefully over to the travel agent to start booking this trip, and then perhaps I'll brave the terribly hot yoga class again and see if I can do more than 5 poses this time without feeling like I'm going to die from heat exhaustion!!  Overall, I just have to keep myself busy and enjoy what I have and keep myself focused on the road ahead.